I was reading a post from one of my favorite blogs (Little Baby Garvin) that I follow. She is also expecting her second little girl a few months after me. Her most recent post was about how she is how she is terrified not of the rest of her pregnancy and scheduled c-section but of life with a toddler and newborn. It was so nice to hear that I am not alone here. It is terrifying bringing a second baby into the world. Will I have it in me to wake up every two hours and feed my newborn and still wake up at 7am ready to take on the day full force with my 16 month old? Who knows. But I sure do pray I do. I woke up this morning in a funk. I just can't seem to shake it either. First thing I told my husband this morning was, "I don't know if I'm going to make it." He, of course, was confused. I simply said, "I don't know how I am going to make it through life". I am exhausted, huge, and terrified. Deep down, I know that this is what I wanted, and that this is going to be amazing. Just like having my first was. It is just going to be an adjustment. I know that is just my mind way over thinking things, because my heart is so in love with the fact that I get to love another little girl. That my little girl will have a sister to love her and teach her more about life than I ever could. That we are truly blessed.
Life has been crazy lately, I don't think I have really taken the time to mentally prepare for what is about to happen in 5 short weeks (or less...eeek! Please not less.) Here is to hoping that I find the strength to be an amazing mother to two little girls, all while being a great wife, employee, and student (come the summer).
And lets hope my house isn't a complete disaster while all this is going on ;)
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